When I realised that
you were not the love of my life,
I demoted you to a health issue.
You became my addiction, my drug.
My insatiable compulsion to be with you,
the instant gratification derived from your touch;
caused me to modify my natural behaviour.
My tolerance levels grew and grew
So high my friends couldn’t the stand toxicity levels;
one by on they left me;
pretended to be out when I called.
I shrank smaller and smaller
did nothing but drink and smoke between highs;
a couple more addictions to feed the big one
I started collecting losses;
lost my job
lost all self confidence
lost my way.
One day I didn’t wake.
An ambulance came
– life was dripped into my veins
I was dripped back, drop by drop
until I was full of me
Just someone who once made
a bad choice.