Day 1 – Addiction vs Choice

 

When I realised that
you were not the love of my life,


I demoted you to a health issue.

You became my addiction, my drug.

My insatiable compulsion to be with you,

the instant gratification derived from your touch;

caused me to modify my natural behaviour.

My tolerance levels grew and grew

So high my friends couldn’t the stand toxicity levels;

one by on they left me;

pretended to be out when I called.

 

I shrank smaller and smaller

did nothing but drink and smoke between highs;

a couple more addictions to feed the big one

 

I started collecting losses;

lost weight

lost my job

lost all self confidence

lost sleep

lost my way.

 

One day I didn’t wake.

An ambulance came

– life was dripped into my veins

I was dripped back, drop by drop

 

until I was full of me

complete

 

without yearning

 

without compulsion

without addiction.

 

 

Just someone who once made

a bad choice.